Tuesday Morning Conclusion After a Long Monday

I didn't get any sleep last night, so this morning I went right to breakfast. I'm obviously not usually up for breakfast, so it's nice when I'm up so that I can eat. While I was eating this morning I thought of something, usually I eat the same thing everyday and I wonder why?I figured it must be because I'm a creature of habit, and that most people are creature of habit and do the same similar things every day. As having a conversation with my boyfriend a couple days ago about how everyone takes the subway at the same time every day. We discussed how if workplaces suggested alternative times for workers to come in then the rush hour problem would be alleviated. Going back to my breakfast, I thought about the reason why I always eat the same thing every day.I came to the conclusion that it's probably because I know that I like so why would I try anything else. There are other things I would like to have in the morning but I've haven't had before so what I'm disappointed with my decision and regret not choosing the one that I always have. That's when I reached the conclusion that if I'm a creature of habit and that's my habit and everyone else has similar habits then it must be because we're fearing the regret of our decisions. Although I don't know if I would've come to this conclusion if I hadn't seen that Ted talk several months ago in my experience design class.
http://www.ted.com/talks/barry_schwartz_on_the_paradox_of_choice.html
To really good video and I suggest everyone watch it. And I have to say that it's not just the video that I'm going to give credit to for this conclusion, I have to say that part of it was on my own because if I haven't had stayed up all night last night and then came down for breakfast this morning I probably never would've came to this conclusion that I am a creature of habit and I would have never applied this video's lesson directly to my living being.

Okay so had to get that all up before I forgot it this morning. guess I should give a small update on how I'm doing. I'm done most of my projects but since they are all ending soon this is really make a difference and I am kind of behind on my note taking from one my classes but I can catch up on that this week or this weekend I hope and I have an exam in about 20 days.

ttyl

Ashley
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By the way this was all dictated to his speech to text translator. pretty sweet?

The most satisfying thing I can do is making something with my own 2 hands

Not sick anymore... for now

The cold is mostly gone, and the pick eye was kicked in the ass. I have a lot of work to catch up on, and after having another melt-down about it, I think I'm on my way to be back on track. I can't help be feel that it seems to simple for me to be back on track so soon. I'm worried that there is something I'm missing -_-
Had to pull an all nighter last night to write a paper that I'm completely forgot about, it's not that great, but I tried really hard to make what I did have sound really good.

I'm tring the library today. If you've been fallowing my blog, I've been on the quest of a decent spot to study. I was at the xspace last time (that's where I took the picture of my curly hair) and it was fine, but it's really small. One group of people cam ruined and ruined the quite calm atmosphere -_- I was trying to work at the learning zone again today, but it was getting so loud I couldn't hear my text to speech reader anymore.
It's pretty crowded in the library but at least it's quite and there are a lot more big tables, so if there are chatty people you can at lest get away to the side of the library. Oh ya I haven't really talked about the library before. It's one big room with tons of huge book shelves and tables and computers. That's about it. I know most schools have like 6 story buildings dedicated to their book collection, but I guess we don't need that here. Although the range of subjects they offer is rather limited (to art and design, surprise surprise) I've heard many profs praise it for being extremely comprehensive and in depth. I mean where else are you going to find a whole section dedicated to photography theory, or printmaking techniques?
Anywhere...

Lecture wasn't interesting, but in a way that was good thing, I was actually able to concentrate and keep decent notes. I really need to do something about my typing speed -_- Keeping good lecture notes wouldn't be so hard if I had that.

I'm fricking exhausted and breakfast made my stomach unhappy... nht food, wha d'ya expect?
I just have to stay awake for another 6 hours....
harharhar

I still have 57 pages of my text book to read

ttyl

Ashley
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My Dream Board

So I've been inspired by some lovely ladies I know who have made Vision boards, that and I haven't had a full nights sleep in 4 days and I just watched the 2006 film Accepted. While watching the movie I realized that the answer to my problems about where I want to go, who I want to be, and what program(s) i should be in can be solved simply.
I'm saying fuck it. All! Who needs conventional university programs dictating to me what classes I should take when and where if I want to be an "expert" (I put expert in quotation, because frankly, although the idea of finishing with a Bachelor is meant to make you 'knowledgeable' in a particular field, the idiots the universities let loose on the world with 'higher' education is unbelievable)
I don't care how long it takes me to get a degree, because if I spend my entire education career stressed out over every agonizing piece then I'm going to crash and burn. If I'm not having fun, then wtf is the point of all this? Another thing. I'm not going to be bothered with this nonsense of only taking things that are pertinent to my major. I want to study EVERYTHING! Nature, Art, Language, Food, Philosophy, History, Travel whatever tickles my fancy.I want to learn about all kind of stuff that dosen't fit into neat little packages called majors. That's why I'm going to abandon the idea of actually being able to accomplish a degree in 4 years, not with all that there is to learn about.

ANYWAY Back to the main point of this post
I'm working on my dream board. Here are some pics. It's not done yet, I'll keep adding to it as I think of things.

 

 

Last semester my prof told me, after I presented my fashion design project, that if I can't draw I shouldn't draw. I haven't done a fashion sketch since then. Maybe I should.

These are some of the words close up. It's all just things I want to learn about, either formal in an institute or on my own. I keep adding everything I think of something.








Pink eye sucks big time btw

that's all

~Ashley
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I don't really have anything to say

I curled my hair this morning, but it's pretty much flat now. I wish I had taken a picture before I left the res.
blahh I guess I have stuff I could talk about but I don't really want to talk about anything.

Once again back to the gridnstone

I had my midterm exam yesterday. It... went.... :-/
I slept a lot today. I think I needed that. For some reason I've found playing video game walkthrough in the background very conclusive to sleep. I've already gone through Major's Mask and I'm now halfway through Ocarina of Time. These have also been quite helpful with figure out details for my own game. Lots of things I wouldn't have thought of pop up when I'm watching a game be played.
Ya so to explain, I'm making a video game for class with RPG Maker VX.

This is what some of it looks like so far. I need a better name for a character, I'm still using the default name, and in all my personal notes i just keep referring to him as Our Hero... maybe I should keep it like that XD

 This is another project I'm working on for my drawing class. This is only the second stage. The final piece is due next week. I might have to drop this class though. :( I've never done so poorly in a class. I don't understand how the prof can expect first year students to have professional level work. And I find his in-class exercise expectations confusing. He constricts himself when he's explaining what he wants to see in your in-class. He always wonders why my first drawing looks better then my last one of the in-class session, and the only feedback he ever has is that I don't think. That's the most unhelpful shit ever.... so anyway, I'll probably drop that class. It's a good thing I'm not continuing into graphic design, cause I would have need this class.

Apparently I'm a bit bitter about that hah



My family made me addicted to a game called NationStates My nation is the Rogue Nation of Pickle Islands. My flag even has a cute little pickle on it. Pretty much the gist of the game is that you make a nation, you input a couple of basic thing sat the beginning, like what type of government it is, so on and s forth, then every day it asks you to resolve 1 (or 2 if you want) issue(s). So like yesterday I was asked If I should make gambling illegible and make public nudity legal. After you've made a decision the legislation is pending and later that day it is put into action. The you can see your nations progress with all kinds of neat little pie charts. Each decision can affect social freedom, political freedom and economics. Any way, it's not a game that's too time consuming, so it's good if your really busy, but need a little daily distraction.

I started reading Eat, Love, Pray last week and I love it. I want to go to Italy... :( It sound delicious XD
Can't wait to have spare time again so I can finish the book.
Talking about food, I need to have lunch

ttyl
~Ashley