Discovering Religion

Recently I've started reading about Buddhism. I have also begun to read about the Druids and other pagan and neo-pagan religions. I have never been very religious, as my family never practices. When my brother and I were born,  my parents decided that we should choice our own religion, thus we were never baptized. My father, Roman Catholic, the norm for French-Canadians, turned Atheist. His reasoning was personal. I guess I can say he's not totally Atheist. More Agnostic, because he still celebrates Christmas with us. And we, on my step-mothers request, give blessings to god for our meals, which my father encourages my brother and I to take part in. I never recite the whole prayer though, I can't thanks god for my food, something inside of me tells me it's wrong. Flame me if you want, but I was raised agnostic, and was never taught the meal time prayers, so this concept seems awkward and unnatural to me. I wouldn't mind using the Japaneses pray Itadakimasu. Which I believe comes from Shinto and translates simple as Thank you for the food.


My mother's house is different. Although my step-father is Roman Catholic, also the norm for the Irish, and my younger half-siblings are attending Catholic schools, we don't pray before a meal, and it's been a long time since he's made us go to church :p I guess my mom is technical a Catholic now, because she was married in a Catholic church to my step-father, but that whole issue was rather iffy, due to the fact that she already had children (out of wedlock on top of that). So I'm not really sure how that worked, meh, what can I say.

 My boyfriend and I were discussing marriage a couple of times, and being that neither of us a religious or want to associate with a Christian church, it was generally agreed upon that we're not going to get married in a church. It's not that we don't agree with the teachings, I fully agree that we should not lie and we should not harm others. It's how the church brainwashes people, and all the corruption that has risen from the church particularly the Catholic church. After discussing this with him, though, I felt at a loss. What kind of marriage would we have? What would we do? I don't just want to have documents sign in front of a jp and then have a party with family a week later, it's not the same. As my boyfriend explained it, I want to have a fairytale wedding. :p ok so yes I do, I want some sort of ceremony with my family and friends to be apart of. :p I could always have a Buddhist wedding XD and yes they do have weddings. There are monks licensed to oversee the ceremony, just like Cristian priests.

I'm sorry I f this blog seems generally theme less at the moment. This idea for a blog entry came to me while I was trying to fall back asleep. I did intend for this to be a blog about me growing up, didn't I? and I feel that this has been kind of an important part, that may or may not take on a significant role in my adult life. And I'm not censoring what i say ether, the whole reason I started a blog was so I could put out my raw emotions and just get them off my chest and on to "paper", where people may or may not read. I just don't care. :)


To be Continued...